The idea of streaming MMFF movies legally is one of the brighter sides of 2020. Using the platform Upstream.ph, Pinoy viewers here and abroad can easily purchase MMFF 2020 tickets and watch them at the comforts of their homes. Aside from the minor issues with casting the movie to my TV, the experience was generally okay. I mean, I did watch two movies. I set up my room to make me feel like I was in SM Megamall or Robinsons Galleria watching a movie after office hours. Fully air-conditioned at kaunting pailaw from my pin light with a bright EXIT sign distracting me from watching. The last item was a joke. My humor really died with the start of the pandemic. Now onto the first MMFF 2020 entry, I watched: Fan Girl.
I bookmarked the Serenity Prayer on my phone but I think the website’s domain didn’t get renewed. So why not copy and paste it here in the blog right? For everyone’s reference.
The prayer got me through so much stuff. Like that time I failed a subject in college or the time I didn’t get the promotion. Deaths and sickness in the family. The prayer was composed by Reinhold Niebuhr in 1932-33. Imagine that.
What’s good about the prayer is that can apply to any religion. It has the same effect as Desiderata. Hmm. (I should also post that in the blog. We need as much as help we can get especially during this time of uncertainty. The country is getting more and more ridiculous by the day. We all need serenity right now!
Since it’s the first Monday of the year, I decided just this morning to be more active in blogging. Sayang naman ang domain. But seriously, kahit walang magbasa que se joda. (Literally just google the real meaning of that phrase– to hell with it!). HAHA!
I first got a taste of miso soup at Teriyaki Boy in Tagaytay if I’m not mistaken. I was with my college friend and her dad. They treated me lunch after a plant visit in the Mongol Factory. Yeah, the Mongol Factory. Gosh, I remember feeling nostalgic about it. Imagine having gone their as a child during a field trip in elementary then going their as a junior year college student for a term paper. Anyway, so I was treated for lunch and my friend was telling me that miso soup was her favorite. She also ordered me a cup. I didn’t like it at all. Haha! I don’t remember if I finished the whole cup but knowing me, I could have had finished it all.
I remembered this miso soup commercial about home.
I wasn’t that exposed to Japanese food at that time. I don’t know. My family wasn’t that adventurous when it comes to food. I think it was just one of the few times I’ve been to Teriyaki Boy. And Teriyaki Boy at that time was the closest to Japanese food as one can get. Of course, there’s Tokyo Tokyo but Teriyaki Boy is fine dining. HAHA.
So why am I writing about miso soup? Wala lang, may tira pa kasi kaming Yabu miso soup kanina for lunch. And this inspired me to write about it. I didn’t like miso soup then but now it has easily become one of my comfort food. Thank you to my officemates who regularly dragged me to Yabu and Ramenagi. Pag stressed kasi kami sa office, we go out for lunch. And ‘yung amoy palang ng miso soup, it centers you. The anxiety and stress, nawawala. And today, being the first work day of the year.
If you know me well, I think walang may alam except my parents. I’ve always had first day jitters. First day sa school, every year and even sa work. Especially now that I’ve crossed my 10 year milestone, I’m anxious to do what’s right each time. Extra anxious because of the pandemic, and if you’ve been inside our house, nakaka-anxious talaga. Haha! Today, I’m just glad we had leftover miso soup.
I’ve been looking forward for 2020 to finish ever since its started not only because of the pandemic (or all the other events that came with it) but also because it would mark my 10th year in the workforce. I tried to be more active in blogging but I just couldn’t find the energy to finish a post. If you can only see all my unfinished drafts. I have a lot of ideas but I can’t seem to put them into words or at least finish them with a coherent thought.
This was captured during a dinner I had with friends at Pepper Lunch in SM Megamall Atrium. I remember ordering the cheapest in the menu. The sizzling tuna meal with rice and a lot of mayonnaise.
I ought to write what I had learned in my 10 year up and down journey as an employee. How I didn’t intend to stay at a company for 10 years. My first job. How I as a millennial, was an outlier and was expected to jump from one company to another, take up masters or open a business of my own. Be the boss and not the employee. How I worked hard to be promoted and failed. How I almost resigned. Or how I drowned myself in travel and countless activities just to move on. How I finally got promoted. How everything came full circle in the last five years. How I realized the wisdom I gained from the last decade. That I was on the moving towards the right end of the normal curve of the workforce age range. I was older but wiser.
Second year at work when we received an award. There was no Instagram yet at that time so I have a whole album in my Facebook.
But scrap that. ( Passive-agressive much? Haha! ) Everything you need to know is in some other self-help post anyway. I don’t want to babble about the same things I wrote in my 5th year post.
Maybe the pandemic made realize that my experiences weren’t special. My journey wasn’t something I can put on a story time session in Tiktok. It was what it was. Working and earning money. Friends coming and going. Fleeting accomplishments.
That time I was Pennywise for a day. My skin suffered and I gained a pimple that I had to Belo-fy the next day. But everyone loved Pennywise. Not the little kids though.
I’d like to believe that I made a mark in the workforce. That I was one of the best. Or at least I did my job well. Maybe I didn’t. Maybe it was all in my head. Or maybe not.
At the end of the day, I’m just as replaceable as anyone else.
When I was young, I dreamed of changing the world. This is the vision of Amiciness. Don’t get me wrong. It’s still a dream. But yeah, the pandemic has really left me on a state of limbo. I still do my best each time. Each time. But I do wonder if it is even worth it.
The nominees are in for BLT Podcast’s first ever Awards for Boys’ Love Excellence (ABLE) – First Half of 2020. The categories are grouped by week so you can vote weekly. Vote your favorites now! Also, register to vote (para sa Pilipinas!).
My friends and I have been wanting to do a podcast since forever. Finding a niche has always been hard. Just look at this blog. HAHA. But during the lockdown (and thanks to the Thai BL, 2Gether the Series), we’ve been raving on BL (Boys Love) shows, talking about them in various group chats. On top of that, work from home has become stressful and talking with friends has been such a relief. So, BLT Podcast was born. I think T stands for Talk? HAHA!
For the past four episodes, we’ve reviewed and discussed four Pinoy BLs that premiered on the first half of 2020. Gameboys, Hello Stranger, Sakristan, and In Between. We can’t imagine surviving 2020 without these shows so we would like to recognize and highlight their best parts. As extra as we are, we developed the first Awards for Boys’ Love Excellence (ABLE). Like any award giving body, it starts with nominations. And as classy as we are, we did it Pinoy Big Brother style.
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