Reads

  • Birthdays are overrated. At least, that was the old me talking. I did not understand how people could spend so much money and time to thoughtfully celebrate anniversaries of someone’s existence. All the thoughtful planning. What gift to wear. Who to invite. A birthday is just any other day.

    That changed when I started believing in the magic of a birthday wish. Or more truthfully, when I started becoming desperate for something to come true. Something like making him fall in love with me. This would be the third year since I started praying for this wish.

    For him to be mine since I had always been his.

    Time to make my wish. #birthday #hopeful

  • I booked this trip weeks ago thinking that if I was physically out of his reach, then he would miss me.

    I imagine him waiting for me to bring him his favorite afternoon snack or calling my phone and realizing that I could not help him review the grammar of his English essay.

    I just want him to feel that void. Hurt you a little bit just enough for him to love me back.

    Well, I am now at the highest peak of Hong Kong, seeing a stunning view of the city’s skyline and I am not happy.

    I miss you.

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    Hong Kong #wanderlust #travel

  • Jessie J reading a heartwarming fan mail from a guy named Joshua Tan.

    Jessie J and her music were her inspiration to stand up and be alive amidst all the adversities he is experiencing in life.

  • When I first read the title of the article, I thought it was about “Super Sireyna”. (You know, that sort of prestigious gay beauty pageant that empowers transwomen to be out and proud in Philippine TV’s longest running noontime show, Eat Bulaga. You know, the one where the contestants would spend so much (more than they can afford) on their long gowns and extravagant props when the cash prize was just a tiny portion of what the show was earning or giving away.)

    After reading the article, I discovered and was surprised that Eat Bulaga has a new segment, a “spin-off” of the Super Sireyna called “Suffer SiReyna”. As the name implies and as the author of the article put it,

    … in Suffer SiReyna, the gay men or transwomen contestants are made to suffer (hence the name of segment) through outrageous requests by the hosts, like the ingestion of kapeng barako (Barako coffee) in powder form, the eating of raw ground pork sandwiched in slices ofampalaya (bitter gourd) and stuffed with okra, and other similarly dehumanizing acts.

    I think this was patterned after Killer Karaoke where one would sing while undergoing beyond imaginable “harmless” torture. Then again, Killer Karaoke does not discriminate.

    Generally, I’m just saddened by the fact that this has been happening in Philippine TV and it’s not even in my Facebook newsfeed or any news venue at all (except for this article, of course).

    I am disappointed that this public abuse is happening right in front of our very eyes on a live TV show with hosts include  a former senator and a gay man.

    Filipinos are so sensitive about race, rape, OFW jokes and almost everything that’s offensive but when this happens, almost no one is talking about it.

    As if it’s just normal.

    This is just too sad.

    I’m glad I quit Philippine TV.

    To the Dabarkads, this is how we suffer.

    How do you feel about this?

    How ‘Suffer SiReyna’ highlights LGBTQI suffering

  • Dear You, 

    Stop giving me mixed signals. Okay? Stop pm-ing me late at night “hellos” and winking emojis. Do me the favor and stop because I know I am so stupid to reply every single time. Even when I know that anytime you can simply drop the conversation without saying goodnight or bye. Or brb.

    You know, I try so hard to make my every response interesting enough to make sure that you reply.

    Stop it. Okay?

    It’s bad enough that you act like you don’t know me when we see each other.

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    I need a hug. #clingy